For This

Kulturgeschichte / Essen / Belle Epoque

For more than one of the eleven around the table, the year left bruises. For more than one, tears choke the blessing. Words that begin as thanks are threaded with veins of dense and nameless matter.

Loss is a removal that adds weight.

Chuckles accompany each small confession. We are older now. Pleasure hits the tongue in the bitter spots too. Years distill gratitude to its sharpest potency.

We round the corner and my turn is seventh. I say that I most often describe myself as a single mother. I say this is inaccurate because a tribe holds my son and me. We are not doing this on our own, we never have been alone. I say that family is like a story. It ends up looking entirely different than what we expect and somehow ends up looking exactly as it should.


Image credit: Otto Günther, Am Tagelöhnertisch (1875)

 

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1 thought on “For This”

  1. thanks for what you share here s.p. -d.

    Another October. The maples have done their slick trick
    of turning yellow almost overnight; summer’s hazy skies
    are cobalt blue. My friend has come in from the West,
    where it’s been a year of no mercy: chemotherapy, bone
    marrow transplant, more chemotherapy, and her hair
    came out in fistfuls, twice. Bald as a pumpkin.
    And then, the surgeon’s knife.
    But she’s come through it all, annealed by fire,
    calm settled in her bones like the morning mist in valleys
    and low places, and her hair’s returned, glossy
    as a horse chestnut kept in a shirt pocket.
    Today a red fox ran down through the corn stubble;
    he vanished like smoke. I want to praise things
    that cannot last. The scarlet and orange leaves
    are already gone, blown down by a cold rain,
    crushed and trampled. They rise again in leaf meal
    and wood smoke. The Great Blue Heron’s returned to the pond,
    settles in the reeds like a steady flame.
    Geese cut a wedge out of the sky, drag the gray days
    behind them like a skein of old wool.
    I want to praise everything brief and finite.
    Overhead, the Pleiades fall into place; Orion rises.
    Great Horned Owls muffle the night with their calls;
    night falls swiftly, tucking us in her black velvet robe,
    the stitches showing through, all those little lights,
    our little lives, rising and falling.

    “Equinox” by Barbara Crooker

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